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  • 21 days ago

    BiPolar Disorder an d Addiction

    I am 57 years old and was diagnosed years ago. I have isolated to the point that I now only text close family members. No calls, visits or anything, but I do have a job. I have no friends at work and spend my whole shift taking calls (call center). To break the monotony I visit a local casino. I don't socialize there either. I tend to drift off into a zone, spinning slot reels until I'm broke. Recently I realize this was not only non-productive but costly, so I decided to stop. It seems from....
  • 22 days ago

    Tired and Lost

    I have been without income for almost 3 months and its taken a toll on me. I had a job that paid well and had nice benefits but the work was so demanding that i needed to take a leave of absence because I was starting to have breakdowns once a week. Once I took my leave, however, I found that my breakdowns stopped and i decided not to go back. I had numerous plans to have money coming in (since it was unpaid) but one by one they've all failed. Any job applications i put in are either automatic....
  • 24 days ago

    Depression after heartbreak

    I was in a relationship from age 15 to 47 . Now that it’s over I feel completely lost in life . Trying to find a new normalcy without the person who I trusted more than anyone and spent my life with has become quite challenging . I feel traumatized the way it ended so abruptly- like a death . Trust me I want to move on - I hate waking up every day the way I feel . Any advice
  • 24 days ago

    I think I am overmedicated

    I am late 50's, i go to my internist for thyroid, has been on Levothyroxin since childhood. Take it every single day. My latest visit they did a blood panel. my TSH was normal but chosterol is waay out of there. He gave Rosuvastatin for that. My other doc is a psyche. I get my other meds from him, Trazadone (for sleep), Clonazepam (anxiety pill), the statin, and on Effexor XL changed from sertraline which it stopped its potency, over 2 years i started it. I dont think both of them looked at the....
  • 25 days ago

    Depression

    I been depressed for sometime now. It doesn't stop me from work or working out, but my home been a mess a long time. It started when I separated from my wife. You give soo much and it's just not enough. I cant tell you how many people walked out of my life for many different reasons Last Sept I got cancer in the blood. Now I feel great and all is good. I have no friends cause I worked so much before I got ill. I got no family. I been battling this cancer alone
  • 25 days ago

    Numbness, no motivation

    I feel guilty even posting but I'm not sure what to do. I have missed many days of work as well as many social opportunities I used to enjoy because I feel like isolating myself. I feel a level of numbness almost, yet somehow also some negativity and guilt. I have nightmares but only can recall pieces. Can't really pinpoint any specific issues or reasons I feel this way. Guilt because I have many reasons to feel good, but I just don't more often than I care to admit.
  • 25 days ago

    A non-motivated burden

    Hello, anyone who is reading this.. I am a first time depression board poster. Even though i have everything anyone can ask for, I have a husband who works his a** off for me. Yet i cant find the energy to do what i need to. I cant find the energy for anything. Im young, and yet i find life to be unfulfilling. I feel like a burden on my family and friends. I feel like i am leeching all the money and fun out of everyones lives when i feel ok enough to share my sadness. There is a history of depression....
  • 27 days ago

    Fight/Flight Decision

    Hi my name is Sha, and with your permission, I would like to become a part of this form of communication. First of all I would like to share a story with you. For over forty years I thought I could handle all things, boy was I wrong. Once menopause and post menopause began a part of my life, I flipped, I mean seriously, my husband, thru the advice of my doctor, put me in the hospital(psychiatric ward) for two weeks, I was heavily medicated with anti-depressant medications. When I left my comfort....
  • 27 days ago

    This stinks☹️

    A month ago I tried to commit suicide. I was hospitalized for 8 days. During those days my parents were talking to my roommates about my living situation. My parents made the decision that I would move back in with my mom.(I’m 20) I was in the hospital and finally got to talk to someone “outside” and my mom tells me that not only I can’t go back to my apartment with my two best friends but that someone else ( a girl who is on our friend group) is moving in. I understand my parents want me to be safe....
  • 29 days ago

    I just want this to end...

    I tried therapy... I tried medication... I even tried to go into an inpatient psych unit to get rid of my symptoms of depression and anxiety, but nothing seems to be helping. Every single day is a struggle for me, and many times, I'll just opt to take sleeping pills so that I dont have to be awake. I don't want to continue living this way.