• 4 months ago

    Hopeless

    No matter what i seem to do and no matter how great my day may seem to be going i always end up in the same place at the end of the night. In my bed completely over thinking every conversation i had and action i did till i utterly hate myself for everything. Every morning starts the same to with constant anxiety for what the day has in store, and i’ve started to dread having to wake up at all. i’ve felt like a failure and burden to my parents and family because they’ve spent over a year trying everything into their power to help heal me and save me from this depression/anxiety. i feel so hopeless and things only seem to be getting worse as each day more time is spent hating myself and thinking about taking my own life. i’m losing friends, support and hope overall. i don’t know what else to do so i’m posting here. it’s my first time in this site and i’m just hoping to find some help on what i can do to make this better for myself and those around me. i just want to feel happy again and i want to want to go out and live a normal life again.

Responses

  • 4 months ago

    RE: Hopeless

    Dear Hopeless,
    I can totally relate. I too, find myself perpetually engulfed in thoughts of being a burden, useless and disgusting- less than human.
    The biggest thing for me, is, feeling like my thoughts, views, perceptions and personality do not matter. Feeling like scum on the bottom of a shoe every day.
    People say take it day by day, however, these feelings are a moment by moment struggle.
    All I can suggest to you is, keep the faith, and each moment reach for a carrot, * happy feeling* instead of the unhealthy food. Easier said than done, yes. Just try to try. Reach for the bowl of healthy thoughts instead of the decanter of sadness.
  • 4 months ago

    RE: Hopeless

    Let me ask you first why are you hating yourself ? Life with loneliness, sadness seems bad to you? Oh my god if you cant love yourself or planning to take your life better do one thing, go out look at the blooming of flower, look the way sun rise and sets down, look the way bus passes by and people seems busy, seller men who works hard to earn, admire the colour change of cloud, admire the curve of smile people gets when they speak to you,
    Go, look into mirror and ask yourself that really no one loves you or you are not allowing anyone to love you? Hold the bag of happiness in your hand and whenever it feels dull or kind of depress, open bag -take that sparkle out - put on your face. Live a life by making yourself feel happy. By loving your own soul. Keep trying buddy this nature loves you. No one is born for hating.
  • 4 months ago

    RE: Hopeless

    Hi, I'm curious about what kinds of treatments have you tried for your depression and anxiety?

    There IS Hope!
    Debbie
  • 3 months ago

    RE: Hopeless

    R u still hanging in there??? I know that feeling, I'm in it now. I understand as do others... We NEED to keep up the fight, take meds, be proactive, seek tesources, and try our hardest not to give up. We were once happy, I'm sure we can get there again by the grace of God.