• 5 days ago

    Lost

    I am in a self induced solitary confinement. The thing is that I have the key to release myself. If I release myself I will have to be seen. I know longer know what happiness is. It is like a mirage. There but not there. An apparition. I have decided to release friendship from my life. I know longer can be fake. It goes against my belief system. I can't be a support. I find myself talking but not listening. I have lost myself. My joy. My perspective on life. I feel I have committed a crime but the only punishment is self loathing and being a recluse. I'm drowning. I'm fading. I have lost my career and sense of purpose.