• Loosing hope by the day how do I hold on?

    I've been through alot of trauma in life relationships Loosing my son before he even before he got to take his first breath that's been the hardest for me I have no support my family never seems to care about my feelings so I keep to myself nobody wants to take me to the doctor so why do I care anymore right...ive thought about running away just sleeping never getting up my dreams are so much happier I'm loved in there nobody makes me feel worthless I have no money to pay for medicine so I'm stuck in a empty shell wasting away alone

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  • 30 days ago

    RE: Loosing hope by the day how do I hold on?

    Hi there. I know this feeling, and I am so sorry you have to sift through these emotions on your own. I know that sometimes it feels that the world is swallowing you up, and at times, it would be better off if you didn't exist. I can't tell you much, but what I can tell you, is that THESE THOUGHTS, while they feel intense, THEY ARE NOT REAL. You are here for a reason. If only just to draw off this experience with hopelessness to help others. Is there a low-cost mental health clinic in your area? There are clinics and even churches that provide low-to-no cost mental health services for free. You can even call a hotline when you need someone to talk for absolutely free. But you need to start talking this through with someone who can help. If you isolate yourself in these emotions, they will take over, pushing you further into the hopelessness that binds you - this will make you think there is no way out, there is no future, everything is futile, nothing will change, you will never be content. THIS WILL TAKE WORK. But just take ONE step. Just talk. Call a hotline now. Even if that conversation goes NOWHERE, even if it doesn't do anything to change your situation overall, just talking about this is one STEP in the right direction. If you can't TALK, then chat. You can chat online with a trained person who will allow you to speak your mind and maybe point you to some resources.
    https://www.imalive.org/who-we-are/about-imalive/

    Hold on.
  • 26 days ago

    RE: Loosing hope by the day how do I hold on?

    I'm sorry to hear this. I struggle with past abuse and divorce due to untrue accusations. Struggling physically and financially with no relief in sight. Everyone tells me to keep plugging along. But honestly I don't know how much longer I can do that. At least we are not in this alone.