• 4 months ago

    I'm think i'm depressed

    I'm a 17-year old boy living in Ukraine.

    I think I'm depressed. I have a very anxious mood most of the day, apathic periods, and other symptoms. I cry at night, always close the door, even when I'm alone. I also lost interest in my previous hobbies of drawing and sculpting. I always feel down, like everything I do is pointless. I escape into videogames and online D&D forums. I've also noticed that I've begun to overeat.

    I have looked at scientific articles and works on the subject, and I am aware that I may be under a placebo effect.

    However, I can't take it anymore. I asked my mom for help, but she doesn't have the time or attention to get me to a psychiatrist. She says I'm just lazy and don't want to work.

    It is true that I am having a very difficult time at school. I want to go to university, but my grades won't be high enough.

    I feel very alone. I don't have many friends, and the ones I do have are what most other people call acquaintances.

    My parents are divorced, and my father lives away, through it's just a 15 minute bus ride to him. Still he's an old man, and I don't want to make him anxious as well.

    I have no one to turn to, and that makes me very sad.