• 23 days ago

    Depression

    To everyone else, I am a happy-go-lucky 22 year old who rarely isn't smiling which is a burden to take on. On the outside I put on such a front that no one realizes that I feel empty, like I have no purpose, that the world would be better off without me. I often wonder how much simpler things would be if I weren't around anymore but I know what that does to families. I hide my depression so well that even my own fiance doesn't notice my moods. I weep in the shower, I can't focus at work because I am too busy thinking about how empty, sad, and unhappy I am. The first thing I do when I get home from work at 5 o'clock is crawl into bed and I don't move from that spot for the rest of the night. I have no quality of life anymore and I just don't know what to do. I'm exhausted 24/7. Nothing feels right anymore. I believe I am too young to feel like this. But unfortunately, I do.

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  • 22 days ago

    RE: Depression

    Hi,

    Unfortunately, depression doesn't care how old you are! :(

    Do you know why you feel you have to hide your true feelings even to your fiance? I mean, it's not abnormal for people to do that to some degree - but I'm just curious if you know why YOU do that?

    You might want to see a therapist who can help you with the "hiding" It would be quite the prison to have to be in and no one sees the real you. What's going to happen when your fiance sees the real you? You might want to work on that before you get married so he can know who you are!

    You may need meds, but I would see a Psychiatrist for diagnosis and to see if you need meds; but a therapist is a for sure place to start!

    Good luck!

    Debbie