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  • 1 month ago

    RE: I Don't Know What to do

    I went through the same thing years ago. Felt like you. Like no one cared about me, my family was ignoring me, i had no friends at all. Ate my lunch by myself crying. Was bullied and couldn't tell anyone. Attempted to end my life a couple of times but i then i realized sth.. I thought of my grandfather and my mum who i loved dearly. I held on to them tightly and that kept me alive. Then eventually realized how much i would have lost if i had died.. I wanna tell you that it will pass. Try living your life for you. If your friends are ignoring you so what? For 3 or 4 years i had no friends. But i made it through.. you can too! Don't think about others.. Really don't.. It is your life and never think you're a waste.
  • 1 month ago

    RE: I Don't Know What to do

    Hi! I want to first say that I know you are here. I know that you exist and that your pain is real. I know that you are having a very tough time and that you are struggling to understand your own emotions and behaviors. I also know that there are times where all of that can also make you feel numb. But, please dont think that you are alone because you are not. I'm here. And right now I'm wishing more than anything that you are ok. That you get the strength and the hope that I know you need. I wish that you tell someone and dont stop telling until someone listens because you matter so much more than you could ever know. I wish that you knew that there are so many people that care and that are willing to help because we KNOW that you deserve love and safety. Because you do.


    When i first read your post it was like I went back to my high school years. I was going through one of the toughest periods of my depression and I knew this because like you the burden of my misery extended to my friends who could not understand what I was going through. I would snap at them over the smallest comment because their advice never could really encompass exactly the emotional downhill I was living. To make things worse my family was for a long time clueless about depression and mistook my emotional numbness and irregular behavior as laziness or rudeness. They didnt understand that I was trying so hard not to slip away. I felt like an absolute burden to the people that I loved and this caused me to withdraw even more and not speak to anyone for a long time about my depression.

    I think that perhaps right this moment the people in your life might not understand what depression is or how to provide you with help. There are people that you can reach out to and that will listen. Maybe that person is your favorite teacher or a school counselor. Sometimes the support is found elsewhere in unexpected places from unexpected people. Please know that you matter so much. You wont always find people that will understand but you will find people that will walk through this journey with you. Dont lose hope.
  • 1 month ago

    RE: I Don't Know What to do

    I wish I had some advice for you other than what I’m going to say. I truly empathize with you. I didn’t have any true friends in high school. I was very shy, quiet—typical good girl. Do you belong to a church? Maybe you could talk to your Pastor, minister, priest? Whatever religion you are. Maybe they have a youth group. Can you volunteer at a hospital? Get involved with something to connect to others. You are special or God would not have put you here. People are so different today. Everyone is so competitive it’s disgusting. Trust me, I’m a 65 yr old lady. I know how you feel. I’m married and very depressed and lonely. I would get involved if not for poor health. You’re young, try to make yourself happy. Find someone to talk to you and make them listen, like another post here mentioned. I wish you the best.
  • 1 month ago

    RE: I Don't Know What to do

    You're not alone! I don't know who you are but I care about what you are going through. Please try to love yourself through these difficult times!