• 3 months ago

    I need an outlet, someone or someway to get this off my chest...

    Hi, I suffer from skitzoaffective disorder and lately things have been the hardest that they ever have been! And I am hving to deal with things all alone by myself! It's hard to function lately and I feel suicidal. I feel like I might kill myself soon because I'm going through my situation that there seems to be no solution other than giving up and surrendering. I live with delusions about the world and life doesn't feel real anymore. I have no one to talk to because nobody understands when I explain what I'm going through people just don't know what to say because it's mental illness to them, but to me it's very real and scary! I feel like there is no other solution than to give up. Maybe there is I am still searching, or just trying to have the guts to kill myself... I feel all alone and I need help! I need to get my troubles and worry off of my chest! I journal all the time, some good some bad. I have practiced so many new coping skills like mindfullness and yoga, taking time for self care and affirming myself in the mirror that I am strong enough to deal with my problems that are bigger than they ever has been. I don't have the ability, the means, or the resources to "make my problem disappear" but I wish that was possible, I wish I could! I wish I could talk to someone about my delusions or what it's like for me going through them, because to me these crazy, scary ideas are very real and I am completely alone! I wrote this tangent paragraph just to throw it out there to the universe that I need help and I can't do all this on my own! But I am and that sucks and it's *** hard to deal with. Even just getting this off my chest is helping, so thank you to anyone who reads this or just to the website for being an outlet that I can confide in with all the *** I am suffering through right now! I wish I wasn't alone! and I wish I could function normally! I am not. But I have grown in my coping skills and constantly trying new things to help me get through this all... just one question, how do you know when it's right to surrender and you need to give up trying to win an unfair battle? What if i don't have the means to ride above this? Is it ok to throw in the towel and at what point? I feel like I should be stronger but I'm *** not!
    Thaks for reading/letting me vent...

Responses

  • 3 months ago

    RE: I need an outlet, someone or someway to get this off my chest...

    Hi vagranbabe8

    There's always a way out and answers to our problem, and believe me, suicide is not one of them.

    Two things you didn't mention - have you ever seen a Psychiatrist for a diagnosis and treatment? and also, have you or are you seeing a therapist? You average person is not going to understand what you are going through, and that's fine and to be expected; but you need to get treatment from professionals who specialize in mental health problems. That's where you are going to get true help from - granted, if you are seeing a good doctor and/or therapist and that you are on board and do the work involved

    So unless you already are, I would get the help of both a Psychiatrist and Therapist to get you on the path of healing. That's the best place to start!

    Good for you for trying to do what you can to help yourself!

    Debbie
  • 3 months ago

    RE: I need an outlet, someone or someway to get this off my chest...

    I suffer from it To I just take my meds everyday and wrk threw it don’t give up keep trying everyday I promise it’s worth it