• 4 months ago

    I don’t know what to do.

    I’ve not been feeling normal for weeks. Let’s start with my mental state. I have anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I have struggled with these since about 6th grade. I haven’t eaten a lot over the past 6 months so I’ve bevome malnourished. But I’m trying to eat more again bevaude things aren’t right. I don’t feel “here” I guess. It’s hard to explain, but I just don’t feel like I’m on earth. I also have horrible memory loss. I’ll forget things I was just talking or thinking about. I overthink everything which keeps me in a stage of panic from when I open my eyes when I wake up and when I fall asleep. It’s hard to make decisions for some reason too. I stopped my use of all drugs too Incase they were affecting any of my symptoms. I see things that aren’t there, static, floaters, and my vision gets very shaky. Whatever I focus on for too long becomes shaky and starts to vibrate. The static is constant, that never goes away. I barely sleep. I wake up at least 5 or 6 times in a night. I’ve been taking Benadryl for sleep and guafacine for anxiety until I see the doctor on Monday. Now let’s go to the physical side. I get numb and tingly randomly and it goes away when I eat. I get random chest pains. Sometimes they stay for long periods of time and sometimes they go away seconds after coming. I also have a low, irregular heart beat (and pulse). I hear ringing really loud at random times for long times or just for a couples seconds. I also hear it when I stand up too fast and I then loose all vision and get really disoriented. I’m very weak and fatigued all the time. Eating is hard. Holding down food is hard and I can’t eat a lot when I do eat, it hurts to eat. I don’t know what’s going on with me and I’m tereifed everyday. I don’t kno what to do, I feel helpless. I feel I need to mention, I self harmed twice with a razor in the past 3 months and hit my head against the wall about 4-5 times in that time span as well.

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  • 4 months ago

    RE: I don’t know what to do.

    Hi Walshy753,

    First of all, if you haven't already, which you didn't mention if you have or not - but you really need to see your primary care doctor for a complete check up to see first if there's any physical thing wrong with you that is causing at least some of your symptoms. I would let him/her know everything that's been going on for you as you have here (and more, if there's more) so that he/she can get a clear picture and have a better idea of where to start re tests.

    Once any physical problem is either ruled in or ruled out, your doctor may refer you to a Psychiatrist to diagnose you if there is a diagnosis and /or whatever your primary care doctor would recommend.

    It's always important to seek professional help when something is going on with you that is not within your normal whether it's physical or mental. If you don't (or if anyone doesn't) then it only leaves room for whatever it is to get worse. Don't let that happen! It's obvious just from your post alone that you need help because what you are experiencing is not normal and you cannot live like that the rest of your life. So seek help from the kind of doctor(s) that can help you rather than doing nothing (as far as help is concerned).

    I would start ASAP by calling your primary care doctor first thing Monday morning to make an appointment, and ask to be seen as soon as they can possibly get you in! If they give you a date that's several weeks away, ask if they have something sooner - tell them that it's very important. If they know that's its more than just a simple appointment, they will oftentimes fit you in sooner.

    Please do that for your own well being!


    Hope

    Debbie