• over 1 year ago

    Desperate attempt for counseling- from anyone

    I had an abortion yesterday. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do, worse than my parent's unexpected divorce at 17. I've been crying so much I thought I needed to go to the E.R for hysteria. It's the hardest thing I've ever gone through because it was my choice, my choice that I still stand by despite all the pain it's causing. I never thought I would be in this situation, ever, but here I am. I thought once it was over I would feel better, like a sense of relief, but I was wrong. The pain has unimaginably gotten worse. The father is there, but he has so much other *** going on regarding his life-threatening brain injury, that he can't be there for me the way I need him to be. So, inevitably I turn to alcohol, because alcohol is always there no matter what. It blurs the pain and makes you feel different from the terrible state you're so desperately trying to escape. It scares me how much I love alcohol- how much i'm relying on it at the moment. I'm desperate for someone's advice/ opinion, which is why i'm reaching out to an online forum. Please.


  • over 1 year ago

    RE: Desperate attempt for counseling- from anyone

    I am sorry to hear that you are struggling. This is the link to a talk line I found that specifically deals with emotions women may feel after having an abortion: https://exhaleprovoice.org/after-abortion-talkline/
    I hope it helps.
      • over 1 year ago
        Definitely stop drinking. That will only push the problems aside, not stop them. You are strong, you are brave. You can work through this. I know you can. I’m not sure what you believe in, but go to church. The lord is with you in every breath and step you take. Even if you do not believe in God, or Christianity, just try to go one time. The lord will speak to you, there is nothing in this world that can make you feel better except for the love of god. You are amazing. You are beautiful. If you ever need to talk, I’m here for you.