• 6 months ago

    RE: Suicide attempts

    Hi there. It breaks my heart to know you are feeling this way. I wish I could give you a hug through the screen. It's important for you to know that you have resources. If you think you might need immediate help and cannot speak to a family member, a medical professional, or a member of the clergy, do not hesitate to call your local suicide hotline immediately or call 800-SUICIDE (800-784-2433) or 800-273-TALK (800-273-8255), or reach out to one of these organizations ( or dial 911 immediately.

    Even though we havenever met, we do care about you. I promise you that it's never too late. There is always hope for a better tomorrow. Please continue to check back in here whenever you need someone to talk to ((hugs)).
      • 6 months ago
        Also think of those around you, family, friends, co-workers, you don't want to keep them more worried about you right??so take them, and give them a chance and see how it goes. I was diagnosed at 21 and now im 37, but for the first 10 years, I was taking my meds sometimes - that's how long it took for me to accept my condition - I always felt that mental insanity is a weakness so with that it came to a point where I had to educate myself, apart from therapy (seeing a counsellor), it was my responsibility to know what mental illness was - and its just an illness, like any other, to manage it, you need meds, you may need more higher dosages at first but as years progress and depending if you are willing to cut yourself some slack and take care of YOU, you may wean off them or end up taking a smaller dosage than at first - I have accepted myself and my mood swings and have educated close closest to me who I trust, about it so that I can have a support system apart from a psychologist because you don't go to therapy everyday but everyday the mental illness is there so equip yourself while its still early and don't lose out on so many years like me, I hurt a lot of people just because I thought only of myself and not about those who wanted to love and understand me - its just a chemical imbalance in the brain, that's all it is - accept that the pills will assist but the bigger job has to be done by you dear - no way around it and no short cuts - equip yourself with more information before you lose loved ones - or lose more jobs, even though it wasn't your fault. Life is going to get hard at times and atleast when you have meds you can take the pain, remember with depression everything (emotions) is intense so you need to take care of yourself so that you can function better in society and feel like you belong again - depression can change a person but a person can also change how they feel about depression - think if it was a friend closest to you feeling this way, wouldn't you advice them to fight with all their might and seek help - that is taking care of those you love but I have also learnt that I have to love myself with this mental illness, love myself enough to be realistic because its something I am going to live a long time with, just like everything in life, change does not come easy but talking about this is the first big step you took so congratulations - depression is anger directed inward, so the more you take long, that long dark hole becomes darker and more deeper - act before its too late - just think of your brain like a car mechanical and electrical system - it needs all these oils and parts to work well and if you take care of the car, it will take care of you - so if you don't take care of your mental state how long do you think the world will feel sorry for you. Wake up and take a leap, try healing - it is possible, just take it one day at a time, if you need to talk some more please do not hesitate to contact me, if depression is left untreated, your life will spiral out of control, don't let it control you, control it and manage it, its your life and please tell yourself you want to see yourself reaching even 65 years!imagine the wisdom you would own if you start equipping yourself now - and because this is hereditary, there might be more generations that come along who will depend on your knowledge...think of the future, a positive one - work hard on your mind - it controls everything - for now realize that and take control of your life, you are not weak if you take meds and you don't have to confide in every Tom, Dick and Harry, there are national support groups and telephone numbers you can call whereby you can remain anonymous but get objective advice. Objective advice is what you need because its no childs play what you are going through - it might ruin your life if you don't fix it. And lastly,dont forget God loves you and knows everything you are going through so pray about this and take a step towards a better day, today might be bad but learn to talk positively to yourself, you will get there.