• 3 months ago

    Bipolar Personality Disorder

    I was diagnosed with bipolar type II almost 20 years ago. I see a psychiatrist regularly but my moods are crazy. They can change in just a few minutes or hours. I never have a stable day. I work full time which is a struggle a lot of days. Lately I have been hearing things not audible voices but things pop in my mind sometimes bible versus sometimes nothing that makes sense. I've always had a temper but lately I get angry and want to throw things, pull my hair, etc. I know I need to tell my psychiatrist but it's scary this just started with the thoughts about a month ago. I keep wanting to change jobs or anything to make me feel better even though I know it won't help. I once lived to read but it now makes me depressed when the book ends, most music makes me depressed. Anyone dealing or dealt with this have any ideas or suggestions.

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  • 3 months ago

    RE: Bipolar Personality Disorder

    Hi, I've not experienced what you are talking about, but you are right, you really should talk with your Psychiatrist about what's going on for you so that he/she can try to help you. I would talk about everything that you shared in your post, i.e. your constant changing moods, anger, busy mind, etc. Maybe one thing that he/she can do to help you is to adjust your meds. What meds are you currently taking, if you don't mind saying? But just from what you've shared, it's possible that you're not totally on the right med or meds; however, meds alone isn't enough. Therapy is really the biggest key toward recovery and learning new ways of functioning in a healthy way, learning new tools that can help you gain control over your emotions and your moods.

    If you aren't already, I would encourage you to find a qualified therapist who can help you.

    Oh, you said that you were scared to talk with your Psychiatrist about what's been going on for you. May I ask you why? Have you not been seeing him or her for very long and maybe not comfortable with him/her yet? At any rate, talking with your Psychiatrist is for you because your pdoc can't fully help you if he/she thinks everything is ok, you know? So learn to be your own best advocate and speak up when you have concerns or things aren't going so well. That's what he/she is there for. Taking care of you is far more important than your fears, and you know what? I have found that more often than not, the things that we fear are NEVER as bad as we think they will be. I'm sure that will be the same with you and your fear of talking with your pdoc.

    Take care of you!

    Debbie
  • 2 months ago

    RE: Bipolar Personality Disorder

    I am bipolar 1. I have those day also. For the last 2 weeks I felt like I was going to start crying if if the wind blew North or break something if blew south. I have done several embarrassing thing do what I do a day or 2 before I go I write my psychiatrist and or therapist a note listing the things I am embarrassed about that I could not say before out loud. That is how I was about to let them know about my drug problem.
  • 1 month ago

    RE: Bipolar Personality Disorder

    don't WORRY about it you are not the only one and sometimes you snap at people or become impatient - I think its seasons changing or something. The desease tends to make you also want to change jobs randomly, lash out, when you see these signs know that you should do the exact opposite - ask your doctor about cognitive therapy, it helps you talk back to yourself because we have a problem with involuntary or racing thoughts and sometimes small things just work us up - so try finding ways for time out - a person with bipolar needs time out more often - needs to engage in conversation more often because its easy to get paranoid - my old pyshologist used to tell me that Im an absolutist - a person who already sees something happen before it actually happens or without even having proof that things will turn out that way - in our case we tend to focus more or dwell more on negative thoughts and that is in itself, self-destructive. Accept that a person suffering from two intense extreme mood swings is prone to such thoughts so learn to laugh at yourself sometimes - that's if you cant divulge your thoughts to someone closer - or call a depression group and remain anonymous - I find that on days when I feel overwhelmed talking helps and after three days I always look back and think....WHAT A WHIRLWIND OF INTENSE THINKING....that's what we suffer from so try and take it easy and don't stress about long but talk about it all the time. I was diagnosed at 21 now 37, am on meds but after equipping myself with knowledge about this desease - from reading/attending therapy/talking about every weird thought you might imagine - feedback I get has helped a lot and I managed to lessen my dosage but lately I have been feeling that way, so for the sake of the people I love, im taking the meds again, of course after discussing with my psychiatrist. One other thing - open up - talk about every little thing, don't keep things to yourself they can be damaging to the mind.