• 7 days ago

    I have trouble asking for help

    I have been experiencing mental health issue for about 4 years now. I was on antidepressants and was doing pretty well in life, so well that I decided to get off of them. Now however, the anxiety, panic, and depression are coming back hard. I'm starting my medication again but it has only been about 2 and a half weeks so I'm probably not feeling the full effects yet. I rely on my ex fiance a lot we are still very close and love each other very much. But I need to reach out to other people and not put everything on him. Right now I am living in my brother and sisters living room and am not employed. I have been looking for jobs like crazy and just haven't had any luck yet. The only reason I usually leave the house is if there is a family thing or to go to the gym. I feel like I don't have anything to talk to people about because im not really doing anything, which makes me keep going inward on myself. I should reach out to my family, but I am the only one who has had pretty bad mental health issues and I feel like they won't understand how I'm feeling. I havent been able to sleep well last night and tonight and I worry that will push me even further down. I'm just scared I'm going to break. I don't even know what that means it's just that I feel like somethings going to snap.

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  • 6 days ago

    RE: I have trouble asking for help

    Hey, there, hads_08. Just letting you know that you are not alone in this. I was on Prozac for about a year, things were going great, and my doctor and me decided it was time to come off. Recently, I was hit with a serious mental health event where the depression and anxiety came back for no apparent reason. Hard. I was convinced it was something biological so I had blood tests and all that. Of course, it took a few weeks to get a doctor's appointment so it was a really difficult time to just get through the days. I'm back on my meds as well but am only about three weeks in. Not only am I not feeling the full effects, but just like the last time, it took me to an even darker place last week. The good news is that it appears to have turned the corner just as they did before but, damn, it was rough.

    Basically, what I'm saying is that you might want to give the meds the time. It's not a good time to interview for jobs or deal with other stressful situations. Applying and looking doesn't hurt and hopefully the meds will be working fully before your Day 1 of the job.

    I know that the websites all say to reach out to family, but you're right - they may not understand. You can ask them to read about it more, talk to their friends who have gone through it, and then reach out to you when they have a better idea as to how depression and anxiety actually affects those of us who have to live with the darkness.

    Supposedly, one in five of us understand what this is like but it's hard to find people who really get it. Believe me, though, there are those of us who get it. The feeling that something dark has a grip on our throats. The mix of emotions that want to explode out of our bodies in hopes of feeling some relief. And yes, the feeling that the end of our lives would finally bring us peace.

    It is scary. Just please be patient with yourself. Give yourself the time to turn the corner with the help of the meds.

    I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I am so sorry that so many of us are going through this.
  • 6 days ago

    RE: I have trouble asking for help

    Know one thing ... NO ONE can go through this life alone. We all need help and support from others. Asking for help can be uncomfortable or awkward at times, but you and all of us need assistance from others.

    Hang in there -- and reach out for the help you need.
      • 6 days ago
        You fiance is waiting for the step you said to do. And do it which is right. And cut the line withZ and have better life with family and your fiance. You know it.
      • 5 days ago
        You know what is it. And you know your fun over
        So pay attention to the realistic life your family that what your fiance want you to do. Others issue not your issue. And your know your fiance have highly qualified to get in anywhere. Yes will take a break but not for long. Since you write for your fiance so you know the best about your fiance. Again pay attention which is right. Dont waste your energy and time for others desperation. And the things you wanted you will get. But your fiance want you to be a good man. Life is not for play for other.
      • 5 days ago
        Plus your Fiance want you cut the line forever with other. You said it and you have to do it. And never forget your promise you made. Pay attention to learn to new things. In the IT world millions things to learn. Be proactive and avoid the waste. Mind it.