• 22 days ago

    Hurting

    Last Year in August I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and my children's father took my boys in to help me. In July of this year my son's father passed away unexpectedly leaving me alone with everything. Due to his passing I had to pick my children up causing me to lose my job. My children's pain effects me everyday when I see they can't have that father figure they are looking for. I'm finding myself starting fights with my spouse and seeing everything wrong that he does. I just can't see the good which bothers me. My kids are constantly giving me hugs and telling me they love me. However, I feel like this isn't their job they need his more then I could. I am having a hard time finding another job which is pushing me into a corner that I can't seem to get out of. I know my post is all over the place and I just can't gather my thoughts on how to keep my thoughts together. I feel all alone