• 14 days ago

    It's getting too hard and idk what to do

    I had a really bad time two years ago that phase was the hardest thing I had to go through but for the next year I was doing really well. Lately I started having depressing feelings again and really big active issues and I don't have any close friends and my family doesn't understand. I'm so tired physically and mentally I missed 2 classes this week. I'm so scared to fall back into a spiral I can't get out of.

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  • 14 days ago

    RE: It's getting too hard and idk what to do

    You will be ok! Just follow the right path and listen the one who real care for U
  • 14 days ago
  • RE: It's getting too hard and idk what to do

    I understand this as well. I was doing really well. People were proud of me and I was looked to as an example. I was putting pressure on myself to live up to people's expectations. I could not leave this pressure at the end of the day, I would lose sleep and the anxiety began to build. I pushed it to the side and it made things worse until I fell into a serious depression for the last two months.
    I am seeking help and I had to leave other things in life for now because it will not work out until I address my health issues.
  • RE: It's getting too hard and idk what to do

    Please let a doctor, or anyone that you can speak to know what you are going through.
  • 11 days ago

    RE: It's getting too hard and idk what to do

    This sounds almost like me. I know what you mean by being scared of falling back into a downward spiral. A few years ago I had a nightmare that came true, people say that it may have been a premonition. There were 4 things that were to happen in my life according to the nightmare. 1) The company I worked for was going to lose a lot of money. 2) I was going to get fired. 3) I was going to have legal issues. 4) I was going to file for bankruptcy. The nightmare became a reality the same day which started with greedy solicitors who arrived at my work place. After several more months Microsoft Outlook hackers sent me a tricky e-mail with a virus & the company lost about 100K. I got fired & I refused to sign a 4 page employee separation agreement tailored made for me by their lawyers Moxon & Bowles considering the company broke civil laws by allowing a solicitor from a cult into the workplace. I was therefore denied my $2000 severance check. The employer denied me unemployment insurance by the EDD due to break of their company policies such as failure to delete spam. The EDD rep was very upset with me but once I reported the issue with the solicitor from the cult EDD was in my favor & scolded the human resources of the company. I got my EDD benefits rather quickly. This bought me some time while I attempted to get my life together but I never was as happy as I was when I worked that full time job because I had seniority and I was making good money & I have not found a job that made me happy and has not paid me any where near what I used to earn. After the job loss I became severely depressed & I have gone through 4 jobs. I lost over 50 friends due to legal action against me by the cult and loss of my job. I did make new friends but we only get together on special occasions like events a few times per year. We keep in touch on Facebook but this is not sufficient for me. I'm now working a temp job and praying that it will turn into a perm job, I do have to get through 90 day probation for the 4th time in just a couple of years. I used to be independent & I had my own apartment but after my premonition nightmare I now rent a room in a family house. Unfortunately I live with 2 relatives that are alcoholics. My private room is my safe haven when I'm there but we share the kitchen. The bad energy from the alcoholism can be overwhelming. I try & spend time volunteering at community temple when I'm out of work.
      • 11 days ago
        It is scary how much I relate to your post.. My room is completely my safe haven.. But I have a 3 year old who needs me, and I can't find the strength or joy in life to be 100% for her. It's so hard.