• 5 months ago

    I feel like i have adhd or add but don't really know.

    I have took many of the online tests of adhd or add, and for a few of them I got 100 percent of traits showing that I do have it. But i don't feel like confiding within my mom because every time i tell her some thing, she eventually uses it against me. I have always been very disorganized. Have to be fidgeting with something in order to concentrate sometimes. It doesn't show sometimes when I am typing or writing continuously because in some way it is like fidgeting for me. I have also always been messy, procrastinate even though i always try not to. and many other symptoms that are said to lead to adhd. I can never focus, i have tried meditating, but it doesn't work. my mind just goes haywire and thinks of something and i get distracted. Its not like i don't try to fix it. I always keep trying but it just doesn't work.

    I am afraid to ask to go to a doctor because my family will know, and they will keep talking about it. They have never bothered to sugar coat their words to not hurt someone so they will surely make a fool of me as well. And my parents would probably just laugh it off or make it feel extremely awkward. I don't know what to do and I desperately want to figure out what is happening with me.