• 18 days ago

    Long term depression

    Hi, throughout my life, I've fought depression. Earlier in life I became a drug addict in an attempt to medicate myself - it took a good 10 yrs to gain control of my life, and I've been clean and sober for 7 years. The problem is, however, this depression! Everyday around late afternoon, it's like a dark cloud comes over me and I can't shake it. There's nothing really bad about my life -- in fact, it's really pretty good, so i just don't understand why this happens everyday. I do my best to manage it each day, and if I keep busy, I can keep from thinking about it. I focus on good things, and pray, too. I've also been on Prozac, lexapro, Zoloft, Wellbutrin and now Effexor. And I've had counseling. Does anyone have any suggestion - maybe a new kind of antidepressant? I don't know:/

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  • 15 days ago

    RE: Long term depression

    Take account of your daily routines , it may be as simple as a change to your daily routine or activity. Examples are diets or not enough sleep . If you don't have one already start a daily log detaling different and customary routines . After a week or so of recording these things try changing things on your list or completely disengage from the the factor. Check your overall mood and mental state ...and if there are needed changes talk with a support person who can better assist you. All the best!
  • 11 days ago

    RE: Long term depression

    Hello my friend went through exactly what you are describing, and she was afraid, she lived in fear for years, and she was afraid to leave her home, she was referred to a therapist from her church, and the issues she was suffering from began from her childhood, and now she has been in therapy for a month, and she is showing more confidence. here is there website. i hope this helps you.
    https://forresttherapy.wixsite.com/harmony
  • 4 days ago

    RE: Long term depression

    More counseling then you need, actually one can never get enough counseling, our brains/imagination along with this mental illness are over-active and it can get scary how one can tend to focus on one thought or negative thing or stressful event then it ends up driving them to a severe relapse - be careful of your thoughts during this depressive episode - remember you depended on self-medicating for a long time and therefore having your brain rely on itself naturally to boost itself its also a process and its also going to take more time, maybe more time than you planned or more time than you can bear- another thing its in your blood, its bound to come back from time to time as its a chronic desease - I would say more prayer too - im glad you pray and stick to certain bible verses, say them out loud, reprimand the devil! and remember that mental insanity was noted and also healed in the bible, so the devil will use anything he can, to get to get you, to lose track again - congrats are in order for having stayed sober for a long time but remember that you are going through a phase - ask God for a friend to confide in, He shall deliver according to His needs and not yours - im glad that you are taking a spiritual path in dealing with this issue - I have bipolar too, for 17 years now, almost 10 of those years I was self medicating too - so lets not be hard on ourselves - its ok, don't be scared of that dark time during the afternoon, face it - speak to God out loud - find a distraction, ask God to give you one - find an interesting book, and remember time outs...we need a breather from time to time because anything can be easily overwhelming so take it easy - but I would also say allow yourself to go through those days, that deep boredom, that empty feeling, and with time, you will get used to them and solutions - tv, friends, book, anything can distruct a mind it just takes practice so maybe its time you work again on not going back to older habits instead deal with this and talking about it is a good thing so you are doing the right thing - remember the devil is a thief, a liar and he came to destroy so when things are going so good for you all of a sudden things can change! he will play with your thought life - dont allow it - and also not to worry about that which you are going through - its the devils plot to make you feel like you are a failure and nothing is working it again - I say this to you hoping you understand as you referred to prayer - and because psychologists are not with us 24/7 - hold on to your faith, days are different but hey! so does the 4 seasons in one year! This too shall come to pass - I trust God will give you a weapon to use against this period of time and please please don't go back to self-medicating - remember how hard life was, having to live a double life and depend on substance to survive, it aint easy, so because you left that road, its better to steer clear of it - take this as a test - temptation to find a quick solution - tell your mind NO - not this time - allow yourself to face your demons - with time, it wont be as scary, days are different and remember one day at a time - lastly Joy cometh in the morning, if today is bad, believe that tomorrow will be joyful.
  • 2 days ago

    RE: Long term depression

    First of all, good for you for being clean and sober for 7 years! Woooo hoooo! :)

    I know it can be frustrating trying to find an anti-depressant that works for you. Just out of curiosity, when you took the meds you mentioned, how long (approx.) were you on each of them before deciding they didn't work? Did your doc try to add anything with the med you were taking at the time? Sometimes it can take two different meds to be effective. Did a Psychiatrist prescribe your meds or your primary care doc?

    You said that you also tried therapy. How long were you in therapy, and why do you think it didn't work for you? I believe that therapy is such personal thing that it takes absolutely the right combination for the to be a chance of it helping. I mean, the therapist has to be someone you like as a person, you have to like their style of how they facilitate therapy, and the method of therapy they primarily use. Then on your part, you have to be willing to do the work that is involved. Everybody goes to therapy for one reason - change. There are a zillion different changes that people want to make, but we all go there for change. So if that's why we are there, then we need to know what change we want (in general or specifically), make sure the therapist knows, and then do everything you can to listen, learn, practice, dig deep into your own heart and soul, and etc....THEN one will start to see progress in their lives. Depending on what a person is in therapy for, it can be a long process, but it's the kind of progress and change that medication alone can't do.

    So it's possible that you were seeing a therapist who wasn't a good fit for you, or that he/she wasn't good a teaching you and giving you tools that would help facilitate the change you want and need, or maybe you didn't know how to connect what your therapist was saying with your life so that you could do the work of change. I don't know; but what I do know is that therapy, when done with a qualified therapist and a client who's honest and willing to do the hard work it takes, can be one of the most life -changing experiences a person can go through.

    I hope that you find the answers that you are looking for, and that they will lead you to life, hope, and stability!

    Debbie