• 11 days ago

    I dont know what is going on.

    Okay I'm 14 and near 15 with many problems I don't talk about. I have been looking into disorders, but still have no proof to what is happening in my life. My grandmother, who I'm close to, is in the hospital, and I don't care, I feel no remorse, I can hardly remember anything, I am annoying to others no matter how much I try to fit in, I am highly disorganized, and have an order to things that seem messy to others. I believe I have a mix of ADHD and sociopathy well known as ASPD, but I was not diagnosed with ADHD when I was a child. I have had a traumatic childhood leading to my beliefs that I have ASPD, and all of my ADHD friends wonder why I'm not diagnosed with it. I just want a chance to have a chat (not through talk but text), so I can learn whats going on in my life. I decided not to tell my parents till I have the basic idea.

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  • 11 days ago

    RE: I dont know what is going on.

    Ok, so to give you the reason I'm not sure is because I feel no guilt, I can lie at any moment and not really care, I feel sensation through aggressive behavior and manipulating people, and I try to have different personalities to get what I want from different groups. The reasons that could oppose is that I feel lust, I am highly responsible and mature, and I choose not to lie to make my life easier. I don't know if I think so logical it makes the irresponsible and lying side of me die down till I need to use it. I tend to love exercise and act abnormally inside of public places where I shouldn't. The reason this is confusing is all of my symptoms show mixes between Psycopathy, Sociopathy, and ADHD, but I don't know which of these I might have, and which ones are normal. I have already differentiated that I feel differently than others, and for some reason I have this sense that I want to be an assassin.
  • 10 days ago

    RE: I dont know what is going on.

    please please go to your doctor ASAP, literally tell them what you think they have, dont wait for a diagnoses
      • 10 days ago
        The thing is that I have had this for a while and I can control it easily. No matter if I go or not it's just the same as a diagnoses, and I'll probably get medication I don't need. I just want answers not advice. In all honesty these two things together make me highly different from anyone else, which is a kind of achievement for me to have. Going to the doctors asap will give me the same answers that someone with the same experience here will give me, but will cost a lot of money, give me unwanted medication, and take away my time from things I could put it toward better.