• 4 months ago

    Girlfriend Left Me. Think I'm Literally dying.

    So, I know this is gong to sound like I'm being dramatic. Please bare with me. I'm a 25 year old male.

    My girlfriend of 8 years, who I was going to marry, just left me a few days ago. It's been bad for about a year now. We've been trying to patch things up but it's been really hard.
    I'm not sure how to explain it but basically my entire life revolved around her and she said it was unhealthy, and she had her own depression to deal with which I wasn't helping.
    So she moved back to her mom's and we didn't break up but tried to independently solve our problems.

    Anyway I'll skip ahead. She just left me after about a year of me slowly degrading into insanity and I'm worried now that she's really gone I'm actually dying from it. I don't know if it's even possible but that's why I'm asking I guess.

    I haven't ate or slept since then which was 3 days ago. I'm randomly falling asleep for minutes or so at a time now and I feel like my legs and arms aren't part of my body.
    When I try to eat I immediately throw it back up, and have had no desire to eat in the first place.

    Most recently I just ate and couldn't actually taste the food. My tongue has gone numb and I can no longer feel with it. Which is what really concerns me the most since the other stuff I could pass off as sleep deprivation.

    Sorry if this is not the way this website works. I'm just at a loss and don't know who to ask. I don't really have anyone else. I'm alone for the first time in my adult life and I don't know what's happening to me.

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  • 4 months ago

    RE: Girlfriend Left Me. Think I'm Literally dying.

    Hi there. Thanks for sharing. What you're feeling is very real. It's so very important that you have an outlet, and people who you can confide in and talk to. I highly suggest reading this article about coping with a break-up: http://wb.md/2o2Hx9q.

    Sometimes we build so much of our identity based on the person who we are in a relationship with that after a break up, it's completely valid to feel lost, or that the ground has fallen out from under us, so to say. The pain of "losing" the person you love, the future plans you made with them, a piece of your identity, and so much more, can have similar feelings to grieving or mourning a death. It's important that you take this time and recognize these feelings as you are doing... but it's also important to confide in a trusted family member or friend --you don't have to do this alone. You ARE cared about. I strongly encourage you to speak with a therapist so that you can get the help you need to navigate through this very hard time.

    We are here for you, even if it's just to listen ((hugs)). Please check in with us to let us know how you're doing.
      • 4 months ago
        Thanks for the response. I wasn't sure if I sounded like a baby. I've never been one to share my emotions.

        It's a long and sappy story that led me to feeling like this and I wouldn't want to put that on anyone who wasn't being paid for it.

        I'm a reclusive person due to how I grew up, and I don't have an emotional relationship with my family or any real close friends. My gf, or my ex gf, I suppose, being the only one I've ever opened up to before and can say that I've ever loved.
        I did read that link you gave me and I'll try to find a way to interact with people. So thank you.

        I don't know if you're the one I should tell about this, I don't want to alarm anyone. I'm ok for now. But do you know of any places that would offer at least short term care for someone having suicidal urges? I googled it but I'm not sure what to really look for and only found clinics for drug addicts in my area. I need something cheap since I don't have much money which may be the problem.

        Again, I'm not going to do anything yet. But the longer I go the more I think that it would be easier to just not deal with the hurt since I'll die eventually anyway. I still have enough of my head intact though to know that's a crazy thought. I'm just preparing for the worst, I suppose. Right now I'm still waiting for her to call and tell me to come pick her up because she made a mistake which... I guess I know won't happen.

        Oh. Thank you for the responses to the others who said something as well.

        edit: I forgot to mention that I did finally get some sleep and eat something even if it wasn't much of either. I still can't taste much but at least my tongue isn't numb anymore. I don't know why that would be happening. Now I have like a faint idea of what I'm trying to eat. Like my brain remembers what food is supposed to taste like and is filling in for my actual mouth.
      • 4 months ago
        Thank you for sharing that with me, . Your local crisis hotline should be able to point you in the right direction. Here ( http://wb.md/2fLK28P) is a list of crisis resources, hotlines, and web sites that may be of help if you feel as though you could be at risk of hurting yourself. If you think you need immediate help and cannot speak to a family member, a medical professional, or a member of the clergy, do not hesitate to call your local suicide hotline immediately or call 800-SUICIDE (800-784-2433) or 800-273-TALK (800-273-8255), or dial 911 immediately.

        Even though we've never met, we do care about you. Yes, a break up can be life shattering, but there is only one YOU in this world. You are special and you WILL make it through this! We're always here if you need any ((hugs)) or someone to listen!
  • 4 months ago

    RE: Girlfriend Left Me. Think I'm Literally dying.

    Please go to the ER now!!!! UR severely depressed and need medical intervention. I had an X-wife who was the same to me it took a lot of time and pain but getting that B out of my life is the best
  • 4 months ago

    RE: Girlfriend Left Me. Think I'm Literally dying.

    Hi For your depression don't go for drugs as these will do you in and your become a zombie, go and check out meditation, just google depression and meditation your find all the help you need, if you scroll down your find how many top doctor and the Mayo clinic all rate it as the best way out, could be best you do that so you can start thinking more clearly, and you can go and meditate any time you feel it coming on.

    So get your mind clear and then rethink what you want to do, but did get yourself straight and get your health back to normal. OK

    NOWHARD
  • 4 months ago

    RE: Girlfriend Left Me. Think I'm Literally dying.

    Seek professional help for the depression, ASAP whether counselling sessions or meds to get you through a few day of sleeping and eating.This is essential. Once those are addressed and you can put one foot in front of the other, you will gain a little strenght to deal with the rest. You need to take care of your physical part of you, then address the spiritual. I know and I'm not going to beat you over the head with this, but God does have a better plan for you. Surrendering to His will, praying for His strength to get you thru the day to day WILL make all the difference. I am speaking from experience. . . and I will keep you in my prayers.